“are you still my baby?”

“always.”

so many thoughts about everything, so many made up fallacies playing in my head of how thing’s could’ve went- should’ve went. we’re supposed to be together, or at least that’s what i feel. i’ve fallen in love before & fell out just as hard. after the last run, i never thought i’d love again whole heartedly. but i was wrong. you changed my whole aspect on what love feels like & even just for that, i’m so grateful. but even more than that, i’ve had so many reasons to fall in love with you. the way you looked at me, touched me, smiled when i kissed you- i don’t think anything so simple has ever made me so happy. seeing you makes me nervous, being near you makes me feel like a little kid again with a crush. it drives me crazy how beautiful & sexy you are. just one look & you give me goosebumps. i don’t know what it is but you do something to me, something i’ve never felt before. it’s like an addiction, i need it- i need you. i don’t feel right without you, like everything i try to do isn’t worth it because at the end of the day, you’re not mine anymore. it’s eating me up inside. i’ve been through so many relationships & have been hurt so many times, in so many ways that i really didn’t understand what i was doing was wrong; that i could hurt someone the way i did you. how i could be so blind to what i was giving up for something that meant nothing to me completely confuses me. you were & still are my everything & not a day passes that i don’t think about & regret what i did. i promised i’d never hurt you & that’s the last promise i ever thought i’d break. nobody has ever entered my life & made an impact like you have. i never thought i’d be the one to have this amazing person truly care about me & i messed it all up. & for that, i’ll never forgive myself. i love you more than i’ll ever be able to express or prove & i’d give it all just to have you back. you jump, i jump.